Never and Always

Never thought what am I but always thought what I wanted to be.

Always enjoyed with people around me but never knew I can enjoy more in solitude.

Never wasted time with friends like this but not for a second felt its a complete waste.

Always lost patience for anything but now waiting patiently for the life's most important decision.

Never felt so motivated but always dreamed to work with zeal.

Always fell in love with the wrong person but rarely felt it as a mistake.

Never lost control of my life but now loving it but regret that should have lost it early.

Always tried to kill time by getting into some activity but now lost count of time.

Never has been a sense of calmness and roughness at the same time.

Always in future there will be a point when i can stand and say i have always been a fool for dreaming of impossible.

But whatever I say u still think me that I never been myself and always been masked which is not true.