I am lost nowadays.
The things I thought I know to operate seems to be new to me.
The home that I have been all these years seems new to me.
The roads and streets that I have walked cycled bike'd and car'ed seems unknowingly new to me.
The people whom I knew as brothers and sisters all through the years seem new to me.
The image of myself when I look in the mirror seems new to me.
All the while I feel that I am doing the routine things seems new to me.
I feel that I have learnt a new art when I get up in the morning and brush my teeth.
The whole idea I had about the world and the environment suddenly seems strange to me.
I get deeply engrossed in studies but immediately feel I have lost the context of my reading and I am completely blank on what was I doing.
This is one of the weirdest part of my brain which is making me think that I know nothing and this gives me a sense that I don't want to be in this for long or I will either become insane or make people beside me insane in which the latter sounds true.
I am killing my time by either staring at things which I have always seen them on a daily basis and I still think that its new to me.
Why am I feeling so blank?
Have I got too many tensions in life or am I too much worried about my future.
The life around me feels to be stand still.
The life isn't moving anywhere. This part of my life feels to be EMPTY.
2 comments:
Well I don't really knw how to relate in this one. Hmmm everything seems blank and v find ourselves numb. I can't help but thinking of Numb by Metallica.
Maybe your working yourself up far too much thinking about things that aren't in ur control.
And believe me to sit blank even for 2 mins is one very great art of meditating.
This brain of ours is so complex and intelligent, it can make us do/not do things as per convenience; but it takes the will to do what we actually want to do.
Lost v all r at somepoint of our lives when v really don't understand the necessity of our existence and the why? n hows? associated wid it. V do not knw how v will contribute to this big world n how r v going to help ourselves bring the best from us.
Yet everybody survives, 'no actually lives' to see the best part happening whenever it does.
Till then u can afford to be numb for a while humming Metallica verses. It gives us an insight abt ourselves - the introspection part
Have a nice day!!
Its Numb by Linkin Park :P
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